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Anti-Bush am I.
04.21.05 (1:31 pm)   [edit]
I don't think I've ever taken the time to discuss my political views/beliefs. Up until the past few months, I didn't even care about politics. I didn't think that it really mattered, and that my opinion (though we are in a Democracy) was insignificant. I had always thought of politics as extremely boring, only for the heated, suit-wearing type. I was wrong. Let me just talk about Bush for a moment...

I have been trying to be more aware of what is going on lately, though. And not just in life, but it politics. As some of you people may know, I am a big fan of Moby. (He is a wonderful musician/DJ, who also has a lot to say about life and goings on. I recommend his site: www.moby.com ) Anyway, he keeps a public journal on his site and I- as a true fan- read his entries almost daily, with great excitement, to hear what he has to say no matter what its about. As probably even less of you know, he is very much a Democrat (or anti-Bush, in his terms). Now, allow me to step back for a moment. I was raised in an extremely conservative, pro-Bush household. I just accepted it when I was young, as I frankly didn't care. But now that I've moved out, and been exposed to the world, I have come to find that I, myself, am moreso on the Democratic side of things. I don't like Bush at all. I'm NOT happy that he's President. The only thing I like about him is that he is anti-gay marriage and anti-abortion. Not that either really have a tremendous effect on me, but I do believe that abortion is murder (which should never be tolerable), and I find homosexual marriage disturbing, and against my religious beliefs. But that's where the happy trail ends, kids. Other than that- Bush is, in my opinion, an idiot. He has yet to prove his worth as a president to this country. In fact, here- why don't you visit this site, and click on the commercial link (hi or lo bandwidth), and see what I mean: http://www.moveonpac.org/10we...

Auf Wiedersehen
 
Gandhi says...
04.17.05 (9:10 pm)   [edit]

I've been getting really into philosophy lately, as well the beliefs and ideals of other religions and religious leaders. I found a wonderful website ( http://www.sfheart.com/Gandhi.html" title="http://www.sfheart.com/Gandhi.html" target="_blank"http://www.sfheart.com/Gandhi... ) that provided me with some good quotes and brain food from Gandhi. I think you may enjoy it!


"Mohandas Karamachand Gandhi, one of the most influential figures in modern social and political activism,
considered these traits to be the most spiritually perilous to humanity.


Wealth without Work
Pleasure without Conscience
Science without Humanity
Knowledge without Character
Politics without Principle
Commerce without Morality
Worship without Sacrifice


[ QUOTES: ]
Peace will not come out of a clash of arms but out of justice lived and
done by unarmed nations in the face of odds.


Democracy and violence can ill go together.
Evolution of democracy is not possible if we are not prepared to hear the other side.
A coward is incapable of exhibiting love; it is the prerogative of the brave.


Hatred ever kills, love never dies; such is the vast difference between the
two. What is obtained by love is retained for all time. What is obtained by
hatred proves a burden in reality for it increases hatred.


Non-cooperation with evil is a sacred duty.


You assist an evil system most effectively by obeying its orders and decrees.
An evil system never deserves such allegiance. Allegiance to it means partaking of the evil.
A good person will resist an evil system with his or her whole soul.


Nonviolence is the greatest force at the disposal of mankind. It is
mightier than the mightiest weapon of destruction devised by the ingenuity of man


It may be long before the law of love will be recognized in international
affairs. The machinery's of government stand between and hide the hearts of
one people from those of another.


To forgive is not to forget. The merit lies in loving in spite of the vivid
knowledge that the one that must be loved is not a friend.


The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.


What kind of victory is it when someone is left defeated?


You must be the change you wish to see in the world.


Whether humanity will consciously follow the law of love, I do not know.
But that need not disturb me. The law will work just as the law of gravitation works, whether we accept it or not.
The person who discovered the law of love was a far greater scientist than any of our modern scientists.
Only our explorations have not gone far enough and so it is not possible for everyone to see all its workings.


Violent means will give violent freedom.


However much I may sympathize with and admire worthy motives, I am an
uncompromising opponent of violent methods even to serve the noblest of
causes.


Power is of two kinds. One is obtained by the fear of punishment and the
other by acts of love. Power based on love is a thousand times more
effective and permanent then the one derived from fear of punishment.


Man and his deed are two distinct things. Whereas a good deed should call
forth approbation, and a wicked deed disapprobation, the doer of the deed,
whether good or wicked always deserves respect or pity as the case may be.


Hate the sin and not the sinner is a precept which though easy enough to
understand is rarely practiced, and that is why the poison of hatred
spreads in the world.


Nonviolence and cowardice are contradictory terms. Nonviolence is the
greatest virtue, cowardice the greatest vice. Nonviolence springs from
love, cowardice from hate. Nonviolence always suffers, cowardice would
always inflict suffering. Perfect nonviolence is the highest bravery.
Nonviolent conduct is never demoralizing, cowardice always is.


Destruction is not the law of humans. Man lives freely only by his
readiness to die, if need be, at the hands of his brother, never by killing him.
Every murder or other injury, no matter for what cause, committed or inflicted on
another is a crime against humanity.


Man's nature is not essentially evil. Brute nature has been known to yield
to the influence of love. You must never despair of human nature.


Nonviolence is not a garment to be put on and off at will.
Its seat is in the heart, and it must be an inseparable part of our being.


It is good to see ourselves as others see us. Try as we may, we are never
able to know ourselves fully as we are, especially the evil side of us.
This we can do only if we are not angry with our critics but will take in good
heart whatever they might have to say.


It is the law of love that rules mankind. Had violence, i.e. hate, ruled us
we should have become extinct long ago. And yet, the tragedy of it is that
the so-called civilized men and nations conduct themselves as if the basis
of society was violence.


Gandhi was once asked what he thought about western civilization. His
response was: "I think it would be a good idea." "


Thank you again to http://www.sfheart.com/Gandhi.html" title="http://www.sfheart.com/Gandhi.html" target="_blank"http://www.sfheart.com/Gandhi... and please let some of Gandhi's wisdom sink into your heart and affect your thoughts and life. I really support and love Gandhi, and I wish everyday for the kinder, softer, less angry and violent sides of man to show themselves. We have too much anger, violence, and materialism in the world today. The World Is Too Much With Us.


Auf Wiedersehen, meine Freunden.

 
in excess
04.11.05 (10:47 am)   [edit]
it won't stop. time won't stop. assignments and priorities won't stop. and i always feel as though i am running out of time, and that i am never accomplishing anything. it is completely depressing. and i must also add that i have been feeling increasingly lackadaisical about everything. i slept for what must have been 13 hours (not all at once) yesterday. i did have good intentions to clean my apt, and read a few books or whatever, but i cannot say that i did so. i was completely broken yesterday; incapable of being put back together.
it, i believe, is merely end-of-the-semester stress trying to slowly kill me. i feel tired 100% of the time, and while i have honestly perfect intentions to be productive... i'm just not. i am a bad person.
i think i would feel better if i wrote to sean. i haven't lately, partially because i've just been too tired, and also because i do not believe that he wants to hear from me anymore. he hasn't written me since december... i do, however, have reason to believe that he may not have been receiving my letters, as i forgot to label 'USA' on the envelope. i hope that is the case. that way, he will think i've been flaking out, rather him receiving the letters, and NOT wanting to respond. not that either, choice is great though. i need to write him!
i've also been going through a period of self-loathing. it is very intense, and i am really struggling with my confidence and self-image lately. it has actually probably become excessive. i hate it, and i wish i could just NOT care, or just look differently, but i am afraid that it does not work like that.
i will also say that i am struggling from stress about school. i am worried about upcoming finals, and whether i will do well on them, and whether i'll find an accompanist in time for juries, and when i can apply/register at SLCC, and whether or not i'll get a job(s) that will allow me to earn enough money to pay for next year, and become more independent. and i worry that my summer will be entirely terrible, due to me having to live with my stepdad for the summer. we REALLY don't get along, and i hope he doesn't try to ruin my life again. i really wish he'd just back down and leave me alone. how much business could he possibly have, pertaining to me and my life? not much, or even none, i hope. bleh.
okay, i am hungry, and also awaiting an email, so i must away. wish me luck at my percussion concert tomorrow night, and wish me luck with everything else in my dramatic life. *hugs*
Auf Wiedersehen.
 
Life is a busy set of Legos
04.05.05 (12:54 pm)   [edit]
Man- life just keeps getting busier and busier!!! I always feel like I'm running behind or forgetting something, or that something is due now, or that I have a test to go take. Its never just "time to relax." With that said, it is now approximately 3:08pm, and I have already been at school for nearly 8 hours (minus half an hour, when I went to go get Chinese food for myself). Anyway, I still have 2 lessons to teach, and a concert recital to attend this evening. Then, assuming I still have any small amount of energy and sanity left, I shall attempt to do math homework, and review my German vocab. Maybe.

I have been in a better mood today. I think its because my 4 big tests are over and done with, and I for sure aced 3 of them. *yesssss!* Anyway, I am in a lighthearted (albeit tired) mood today. I am feeling somewhat placid, yet pensive. It is one of those days where I would like to go on a walk through the mountain benches, sit down at the top of a hill, listen to Moby, and write in my journal. But alas- I cannot. So I am writing here. *shrugs*

I am going "home" on Saturday to look for summer employment. I will be working furiously over the summer to earn money for the next school year. *bleh*

Anyway, I must go teach a lesson, so TTYL! :)

Auf Wiedersehen.