I just need to say that Radiohead is the GREATEST band ever. I just can't get enough of them!!! And actually, I've only listened to their HttT album, so I can only imagine how wonderful their other albums are. And speaking of (new) music, I just bought "18" by Moby today. I love me some Moby, too. I also listened to the new NIN CD, and I must say that I am in no way impressed or taken by it. I think its Trent's worst effort yet. Bleh.

And the weirdest thing happened today. Around about 8pm tonite, I became (all of a sudden) extremely melancholy/depressed. I've been listening to Radiohead, Moby, and NIN (Further Down the Spiral) since then, and I can't bring myself to listen to anything else. I'm not entirely sure I know why I'm feeling this way. I should actually be very HAPPY. I just finished all my finals (including violin jury- which I feel I did well on), and pretty much everything is going well for me. I feel I can pinpoint my depression to at least one thing (though its not entirely logical to me as to why its a "cause" for my depression): Szalay. We've finally become "friends," which is something I've wanted for so long, but I have discovered (more like have come to realize) something about here that is driving me absolutely CRAZY. She has a huge ego problem. She is always saying stuff like: "You're so conscientious- just like me" or "You have the drive to succeed- just as I do," and she's always dissing other students who aren't as "dedicated," "intelligent," "intellectually curious," or "bright" as WE are. Its not that I have a problem with her praising me (although its not my favorite type of thing. I just don't like praise that much), but I just wish that she would not think herself so superior, and that she would treat all her students equally. I don't think its entirely their fault if they are as "smart" or "driven" as she is. Not everyone is like that, and not everyone thinks/works like her. It really bothers me. And as a teacher myself, I can say that sure- there are students who do better than others, students who have more (natural) talent, and students who care more or who are more interesting, but I've NEVER treated one student "better" than another, no matter HOW much I may enjoy their personalities or have enjoyed watching them play. I just don't think its right! As a teacher, your JOB is to teach everyone, to encourage everyone, and be rooting for ALL of your students the very same amount: A LOT! So I must say this: Szalay used to be a role model for me. I use to truly enjoy her personality, and I used to try to teach my own students using some of her methods and personality quirks. Well, that all ends today. I can stand back and admire her for what she has accomplished with her life, but I don't feel that I can get over this bias she has towards her "other" students. Why is it that people who have spent so much of their lives seeking education, have no common sense/courtesy? Why must that always be the way of things?

Sorry, I didn't mean to vent so much, but that's REALLY been bothering me. I just can't stand people who do stuff like that. Its not right. At any rate, I am also a bit melancholy, because this school year is finally over. I will be moving in with my parents for the summer, and I will be working yet another crappy job. I will have to put up with my diabolical dad and his "ways" which I have undoubtedly discussed in vivid detail to you many times. I will have to leave all of my friends, hobbies, and life up here at school. I will turn off my brain and emotions, and most likely be near-dead the entire summer. This will probably be the last journal entry until late August (though- if I get the opportunity- I'd like to sneak one or two entries in over the summer, to keep you updated), so until then-

Auf Wiedersehen.